The Odd Number

3 days ago, I had collected a year's worth of beer labels




I'l count it someday.

1)Name the Things You Have Bought Today :
[x] yosi, shawarma, columnar book, at burger steak meal

2) Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
[x] tubig, alak, iced tea, beer

3) Last Time You Cried ?
[x] can't remember

4) What's In Your CD Player ?
[x] coldplay, rivermaya, sugarfree

5) What's Under Your Bed?
[x] 2 pares ng tsinelas, mga sapatos ng utol ko, alikabok

6) What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
[x] 8:00 and 9:00

7) Current hairstyle:
[x] may isang taon na akong hindi nagpapagupit

8) Current Clothes?
[x] puerto galera shirt, torn levi's jeans, medyas, underwear, chucks na itim, medyas na gray

9) Current Desktop Picture?
[x] i don't have a pc

10) Current Worry?
[x] scholarship

11) Current Hate?
[x] myself

12) Favorite Places To Be:
[x] nowhere

13) Least Favorite Place ?
[x] home

14) Could You Play An Instrument ?
[x] guitar. pero naisip ko na niloloko ko lang ata ang mga tao at sarili ko na marunong ako

15) Favorite Color(s)?
[x] black, white, blue

16) How Tall Are You?
[x] somewhere between 5'7" and 5'8"

17) Current Favorite Word/s?
[x] paalam

18) One Person From Your Past You Wish Could Go Back And Talk To:
[x] dad

19) Favorite Day/s?
[x] hindi pa dumarating ang araw na iyon. pero by that time, hindi ko na rin sya maipagdiriwang

20) Where Would You Like To Go?
[x] somewhere that's not here. korea maybe. south siyempre

21) Where Do you want to live when you get married?
[x] will I? gf nga wala ako asawa pa kaya???

22) Favorite food?
[x] shawarma rice

23) Color of most clothes you own:
[x] don't really care. kung anong meron, iyon

24) Number of pillows you sleep w/?
[x] 2

25) What do you wear when you go to sleep:
[x] kung anuman yung huling suot ko bago matulog

26) What were you doing 12AM last night:
[x] nanonood ng tv

27) How old will you be in 10 yrs:
[x] 29

28) What do you think you'll be doing in 10years?
[x] will i still be around by then?

29) Do you have braces?
[x] wala

30) Are you paranoid?!
[x] most of the time, yes

31) Do you use the fone too much?
[x] alarm clock, oo

32) what is the brand of your wallet?
[x] philippine airlines

33) Your alarm clock?
[x] cellphone

34) Your phone?
[x] alin dun? sige na nga, 5110 at 3310

35) Computer?
[x] sinabi nang wala nga e

36) tv?
[x] destiny at toshiba

37) First screen name?
[x] alaws

38) First piercing/tattoo?
[x] wala

39) First enemy?
[x] ...

40) Last library book checked out?
[x] how to learn korean

41) Last person you yelled at?
[x] utol ko

42) Last crush?
[x] Mai

43) Last CD/song played?
[x] yellow - coldplay

44) Last thing you ate?
[x] burger steak ng jollibee

45) Last annoyance?
[x] pagiging burara ng mga tao sa bahay

46) Last disappointment?
[x} ako

47) Last thing written by hand?
[x] message kay yot sa bagong malate issue

48) Last words spoken?
[x] oy j.o.

49) Last ice cream eaten?
[x] drumstick

50) Last message?
[x] "anong bahala na? hindi pwede ang bahala na." - yot

I am falling pretty fast, accelerating at 9.81 meters per second squared to the ground. My speed is too fast that if I try to open my parachute at this time, the thing that should save me could be the cause of my demise. Should I take my chances? Assuming I don't, and knowing myself, I won't, I would still die as soon as I hit solid ground. I still have a chance, I know. But will someone teach me how to fly?

***

My scholarship is not being a big help at this point. Financially, yes. But other than that, zilch. Shit. As if my course is not difficult enough. I am failing every exam that comes my way. I am down to my last chance of keeping the scholarship. Nahihiya na ako. Oo, may hiya rin ako. Kahit paano. Tangina. Sa bawat exam na ibinabagsak ko, lalo lang nadaragdagan ng iniisip ang utak ko. Paano kung matanggal nga ako? Kung makalagpas nga ako rito, may thesis pa; paano rin iyon? I'm breaking down. I tried. Really, I did. Maybe this is just how it goes. Everything falls to the ground after all.

I may be a scholar, but only by name.

May naalala ako kahapon dahil sa pagsagot namin ng crossword puzzles nina ato, pb, at yot. Isa itong pag-uusap namin ng kaibigan ko noong nabasa niya ang kuwentong nalathala sa lit folio namin.

Siya: Ang lalim ng Tagalog mo. Wala akong naintindihan.
Ako: Baka naman mababaw lang yung sa'yo.

Ano na lang kaya ang sasabihin nya sa mga sumusunod na salita?

> Hindi mo na naaanagagan ang sinag ng araw?
> Huwag mo itapon ang iyong biha sa sahig! Ibaon ko kaya ang laseta sa tagiliran mo!
> Inaasa kayo! Magsabay-sabay naman kayo kumilos!
> Tara na sa ilaya!
> Tumahimik ka kundi ay ikukulong kita sa irasan!

I regret that I was not part of the living world last night. So, anyone care to brief me on the events?

***

Anyway, kaya pala ako sabog kahapon ay dahil birthday ng kaibigan ko at uminom kami. Masaya kasi kasama pa namin yung mga ECE prof na naligaw sa kalsadang iyon. Astig nga kasi game sila e. Pinainom pa namin ng EL HOMBRE! woohoo!

***

So, kung sabog ako kina Cara, pasensya. I needed to catch up with lost sleep anyway. Ilang araw na akong puyat.

Just had the sudden urge to laugh. Unfortunately, you can't make too much noise in the computer lab. And I wouldn't want people staring at me and saying "weirdo" either so I tried to contain it in. Why, you ask? I'm not quite so sure myself. I just felt like doing so. At life, perhaps. At my problems, maybe. At everyone... could be. At myself, definitely.

Laughing is good.

***

Oh, and yeah, got an 88 in my last exam. The prof said, "It's good to pass once in a while, right?" I answered in my mind, "Hell yeah!"

Was up to the task of completing the summary for my mock thesis so I logged in as a freeslotter at the 1st floor computer lab in Velasco at about 1-1:30 PM. A few minutes later, at exactly 2:00, the lab technician decided to shut the lab down. So, I had to transfer. However, since it was online enrolment week, all the laboratories were occupied. I had one last resort, the Malate Computer.

I reached the fifth floor of the SPS building and waited until 2:30 for Carlos to finish his assignment for Children's Lit (or whatever that subject is called). 2:30 came and I started working. At around 3:30, *** arrived and begged to use the Malate Computer for a while. I gave her the seat since it was supposedly only for a while. How was I to know that a while for her would mean 30 minutes? Thirty fucking, precious minutes. By the way, I had to finish that summary before 4:20, before my class starts - the class that I waited for for 5 freaking hours.

And here's the fun part. She, as it happened, had not yet finalized her schedule. Turned out that she was more of the spontaneous type, the kind that chooses a schedule at the exact moment of enrolment. Great, huh? I was losing patience. I had a little over two chapters left with so little time remaining. I had to speak my mind. And she spoke hers.

To cut the story short, I finished at around 4:35. Minadali ko pa 'yung gawa ko. As I reached the classroom, I was met with the good news that the prof decided, for once, to check the attendance.

***

No, the girl I was talking about is not U.

Alam naman nating lahat na kapag naka-pormal (oo, pormal at hindi porma) ang isang tao sa Lasal at nakita siya ng kaibigan, ang unang itatanong ay "Bakit ka naka-ganyan?" Siyempre ang isasagot naman ng tinanong ay "May report/defense/speech ako ngayon."

Pag ako ang nakasalubong mo ngayong araw na ito, ang isasagot ko sa'yo ay "Gusto kong pumorma."

Bakit? Kasi akala ko ngayon ang defense ng mock thesis namin ngayon pero next week pa pala. Tapos, wala na akong klase after 1110. Actually, 1000 pa lang wala na kasi maaga kaming dinismiss ng prof namin. 940 ang start ng class, late ako ng 20 mins, go figure. So, I'm stuck in this suit for now. Gusto ko muna umuwi. pero may 8 akong programs na naghihintay sa akin na simulan ko. Wala pa akong nagagawa. Yosi muna ako. (Mahirap pala patayin ang upos. Kailangan ko pa ng oras.)

Went to a friend's party last Wednesday in Las Pinas and I can proudly say that I had surived PNR!

***

Went to Cara's condo after at around 12 MN so that makes it a Thursday. Finished the beer Ray and company left. Ate at Burger Machine with Cara. Slept afterwards.

***

Woke up at around 11AM. Loi and Mica were now with us. Hangover was bad. Head was throbbing like hell. Had to get water to drink. Went to the fridge. Got the bottle of Absolut vodka and filled a third of the glass with it. (For those who don't know, at Cara's, those kind of bottles are filled with water after the original contents are consumed.) I downed the glass only to discover after the last gulp that it wasn't water at all. Great. Just what I need after a night's drink. A third of vodka to start my day. Left at 2PM.

***

Spent the rest of my Thursdayand a part of my Friday at a friend's house. Nothing much happened. Wasted the day there, bumming out.

***

Went to my Tita's house at around Friday evening. Tito Mark invited me for a drink. Thinking back, it had been quite a while since our last. I obliged. We finished a quarter of Andy Player whiskey. Gave the last drops to his 3 year old son, Gabriel. We moved on to a drink that I don't know. After a few shots, he gave me a can of San Mig Light. He had one too. Said he really wanted to drink but had no one to drink with. Thankful that I had come. The feeling was mutual.

He had an idea. Why not let his son drink so there would be someone who could accompany him if and when he felt like drinking? We gave Gaib some beer. After tasting it, he moved away. However, after a little while, he went back to us, asking for more. We gave in. Gaib went away after that and returned after a few seconds. My cousin got drunk. How'd I know. Going up the stairs, he nearly tripped. We were laughing our hearts out and I just thought that in about 12 years, the family will have another alcoholic.

***

Saturday. Laundered. Went home.

***

Sunday, went to church with a friend's family. Their mom asked me to come with them. I couldn't say no. Went there and had an idea for another story. The church was good for something after all! *Tear*

Have been working on this program for the past few days. No luck yet. Oh well. Try again later.

***

Pormal na naman ako ngayon. Hopefully, matuloy na ang defense. Bukas, pambahay look na ako.

Marami itong lasa. Itanong niyo pa kina Carlos, Cara, Chris, Nopc, Loi, Ray, at Krinel.

Sa inyong lahat, salamat sa panalo. Masarap! Waha!