August 8th, 2005
Epiphany
Wow. I am one step closer to understanding myself. I had recently discovered that I hate commitments. This was pointed out by a friend(HA! Friend).
I always start out liking someone. From there, there are two(?) possibilities. ONE: I give up and get bitter because of its apparent hopelessness. TWO: She shows interest and I lose mine. Just recently, I settled for TWO again. I still haven't entertained ONE. At least not yet.
Come to think of it, I'd always end up alone either way (just as I often tell myself). That is unless I meet someone who won't take much interest in me and is well enough to make me want to pursue her. Who? I really am not quite sure but I'm hoping (and thinking) that it's her. She hates commitments, too.
