Entries for November, 2005

November 2nd, 2005

It had just occured to me...


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That I am the only one capable of losing in a win-win situation.
Currently listening to: Canon
Currently feeling: Go figure.
Posted by 1217713 at 11:07 AM | 2 !

November 6th, 2005

Kind of late but still...


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Went to Rizza's party last Thursday. Didn't get drunk. But it's not because I'm such a big drinker. It was because I chose not to get drunk. I was refusing drinks. Yes, you read that right. I did. AJ said that maybe I reached my saturation point. Well, it's good. I like how things are going. I just need to change one more thing and I'm off to being a true UN-Reggie.

I find it rather funny that people labeled me as Reggie when i had long hair and was constantly drunk. For some time, it was my identity (how pathetic of me). Haha.

So I guess my identity's nearly gone now, huh?

Currently listening to: Call and Answer
Currently feeling: bleh
Posted by 1217713 at 10:53 PM | 6 !

November 9th, 2005

Song for the moment


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"Sitting, Waiting, Wishing"

I was sitting, waiting, wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting, waiting on you?
Must I always be playing, playing your fool?

I sing your songs, I dance your dance
I gave your friends all a chance
Putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
And maybe you been through this before
But it's my first time
So please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I can't always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool
I keep playing your part
But it's not my scene
Won't this plot not twist?
I've had enough mystery.
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
But I'm already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting

Well if I was in your position
I'd put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
'Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Must I always be waiting, waiting on you?
Must I always be playing, playing your fool?
No, I can't always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool, fool
Currently listening to: Isn't it obvious?
Currently feeling: bleh
Posted by 1217713 at 01:23 AM | ?

November 23rd, 2005

Haaay...


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Php 150 worth of illusion is almost up.

Dahil sa pamimilit ni Aleck pagkatapos ko maglahad ng kwento sa kanya, may naisulat akong "kwento" (kung maaari nga siyang matawag na ganoon). Patayan na lang bukas.
Currently listening to: Come Around
Currently reading: Cogito ergo sum and other musings from science
Currently feeling: bleh
Posted by 1217713 at 11:15 PM | ?

November 24th, 2005

Ayaw ko na.


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Suko na. Ito na talaga. Wala. Sawa na ako. Hindi na muli. AYOKO NA.

Palagi na lang ganito. Tulad nga ng sinabi ni Cara, magaling lang ako sa simula. Tapos sa huli, wala ring nangyayari. Bumabalik lang ako sa sariling kilala ko na nagiging mas malungkot pa dahil nadagdagan na naman ng isa pang pasakit ang buhay na to. Kaya ayoko na.

Aalis lang ako nang maayos para wala nang tanong-tanong pa. Paunti-unti para hindi na hahanapin pa (kung hahanapin nga ba). At pag tama na ang oras, maglalaho na lang ako. Kasi ayoko na.

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For a narcissist, I hate myself so.

Currently feeling: defeated
Posted by 1217713 at 11:37 PM | 8 !
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