December 2nd, 2006
Why?
Why are my so-called relationships becoming more and more short-lived?
Maybe I ought to stop kidding myself.
Entries for December, 2006
December 14th, 2006
Okaaay...
| Your Birthdate: April 28 |
 You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter! You are very prone to love - hate relationships. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 6 You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month. |
December 22nd, 2006
0400 hours, 122006
I got what I wanted. Sort of. I never really did expect that to happen. In fact, I had imagined the scenes and the possibilities over and over from the moment I woke up to the moment we began conversing that while we were at it, it seemed more and more unreal to me...
But it did happen. I could still recall every part of it with accuracy of detail: how she moved the hair away from my face, how she made contact with me, the words she spoke to me, the smoothness of her skin, the taste of her lips, the warmth of her embrace. I had wanted for things to stay that way. I had wished the world would stop spinning right there and then. And that it would spin backwards to the start so that I could relive those moments again and again and again.
But sadly, nothing ever truly lasts. She had to leave. I did as much as to follow her so I could be with her for a few more hours. And I could only postpone the inevitable. I managed to get her number and for a time, she replied to my messages. She had warned me that she was about to run out of load, which eventually happened, I suppose. I tried again once. I sent one more message her way. There was no reply.
And now I'm sinking into deep depression. Again. Was I just over my head? Was it a one time thing for her? Well, it was a party. What do you expect? Right? Right?
Why do I fall in too easily? I guess this makes me the fool again.
