The Odd Number

(Yes, I have that/those.)

Thing is, whatever I do, it ends the same as it once had. Wait, it had ended. Last night. Done. Finished. Kaput. As quickly as it had begun. Just like the last time. Always like the last time.

So

I

fell.

Again.

I never learn, do I?

Safety net?

Perhaps there's one.

But I think I missed it.

By a long shot.

Besides, you know what safety nets are for, right?

No?

It's something there to break your fall.

It's also something you walk away from after it catches you.

And then you climb back up the tightrope for another try.

And you hope the net's still there when you fail once more.

(I think I'll keep a low profile for a while. Or from here onwards.)

I.

Really.

Don't.

Know.

I don't think I ever will.

to move along. Not "move on", mind you. Move along.

Kaya kong gumising nang maaga. Totoo, kaya ko. Napatunayan ko na.

Ang hindi ko kayang gawin ay yung bumangon.

Anyway, this morning, when I woke up (for the third time, I think), I checked my PSP for the time (it was the first thing within reach that has a clock), I saw this:

10/10 10:10

Amazing.

it's better that I'm left alone.

1217713

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Renminbi

A few days ago, a colleague gave me a nicotine gum. I declined, stating my past experience with it, how bad the taste was. But she was persistent, saying this is different since it's mint-flavored. So I accepted it. However, I was reluctant to try it until just a while ago on my way to work.

To be fair, she was right. It's different from the other nicotine gum I had before. But only the first thirty seconds of it. When the mint flavor wore off, it was pretty much the same bitter taste over again. And to make matters worse, there was no waste bin nearby. (Yes, I make it a point not to throw anything on the street. Well, except for cigarette butts. Haha.)

So there, I had to go through that horrid experience twice. Shet.