November 10th, 2009
england camera relations attack
the longer i stay in this job, the more i realize that...this. is. NOT. for.me.
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Last saturday i attended the first day of a six week photography workshop. it's worth 8k but i'm in it for free. i'm thankful and all but...my camera and i are in a sort of "cool off" at the moment. before saturday, i havent even looked at my camera since my birthday (last September). yes, i'm lucky to be in this for free, with a great teacher and all, but i feel like it's being...i dunno. imposed on me. like im forced to LOVE LOVE LOVE photography but in reality, photography and I need to take a break, especially after the whole thesis thing.
i dunno. the more i think about it, the less enthusiastic i am about picking up my camera and shoot-shoot-shooting.
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I had/have asthma. I struck Sunday night and got worse yesterday. I had to buy a new inhaler. I didn't go to work today because of it. I missed two events today. and now have a pile of articles to do. and now. repeat the first line.
"the longer i stay in this job, the more i realize that...this. is. NOT. for. me."
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The longer i stay here(in the Philippines), the more i realize that all i want to do is just get out. England plans are seriously pushing through. no idea when yet....but soon. target: 2015. let me know if you want to go.
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school is waaaaay more fun than the working world. the only good thing about it is that i get paid. not enough though. seriously. seriously.
